It's been like ages since I last met incik sayang, so last friday I went to kl to see him. My, he looked gorgeous! Spiky new haircut,  and I think he shed a few pounds off; dem I adore my own boyfriend! :D

Aritu I wrote about the sms. About us getting a raincheck. But we ended up missing each other so bady as early as two days after the breakup. Aaah, that's clichè... :) Tapi tu la, sometimes a person is just too attached to us emotionally that we didn't realized it until he's not there. Like an old saying 'We never miss the water til it runs dry'...

In my case, maybe aku rasa dia makin lama makin jauh dari aku, dia bz ngan keje dia sampai aku rasa aku dah tak penting je lam idop dia... We both lost track - dia ngan keje dia - aku ngan life aku. Ada satu tahap aku rasa tadek hati dah nak gayut ke, chat ngan dia ke... Sebab aku rasa dah tersangat jauh dr dia...

Breakup aritu was like the peak of all discontentments lah... So bile dah baik smula, we went back to ground zero, had a fresh start and everything needed to be virtually built again... The lawn needs watering, the flower is yet to bloom... 

So that may be the reason why aku decide nak pi kl dulu... Ape2 pun aku nak face to face ngan dia. I need to make this relationship works. I don't know why but I feel that I had to.

Memule tuh aku rasa cam uneasy gak actually sebab dalam 3 bulan kot aku tak jumpe dia... Tah, rasa segan2 sket plak ngan dia... Hehe. Then dia plok aku, and that time aku rasa cam dia rindduuuuu sangat... Sayaaannngg sangat kat aku. :) Gumbira sungguh time tu sebab dia nye reaction tu ikhlas. Aku bleh nampak. Aku tau dia sayang aku..

Then kitorang slowtalk pasal problem kitorang dulu tu. Pasal dia busy, pasal aku tak tahan and all. That time dia betul2 explain kat aku dengan besnya, sampai aku bebetul paham situation dia macam mana. Cara dia explain sungguh2, cakap lembut2 nak kasi aku paham situation dia tuh yg buat hati aku btol2 terbukak utk faham dia... That time aku btol2 contented... I love him more than ever. I was like, "Now this is the guy I fell in love with..."...

Aku tringat aku penah doa, kalo btol la aku ada jodoh ngan incik sayang, tolonglah ya Allah... Tunjukkanlah jalan seterang-terangnya sebab aku takmo waste time ngan orang yg bukan suami aku in the future... I believe ni la jalannya...

So suda gumbira, kitorang leisurely strolled down Bintang Walk, hand in hand like sappy old movie... Time tu aku rasa ringan sangat kepala... Rasa bahagia. Rasa lucky. Rasa contented. Rasa "Aah.. besnye ada boyfriend.."... Hehe. Kitorang gelak ketawa cam dulu. Aku nampak dia pun macam bahagia sama... And itula yg paling buat aku hepi :)

Bile aku dah balik utp, dia anta msg, "Thanx sbb dtg ari tu. It brought us back on trax." :)

Moral of the story, he's my superman! And I have to accept the fact that even superman pun ada his weakness point that is, elegik ngan kryptonite. Inikan pulak Suparman atau Rubiah Suparman, or my dear Adi Suparman. Hehe  :P