::Faculties of Mind::

Penah rasa tak camner it feels like when everything seems to go all wrong?

Penah rasa tak camner, bile kite rasa takut nak kasi the best of ourself to someone dear to us sebab kite takut kite kecewa at the end of the day?

Penah rasa tak camner, dalam pada kite nak protect ourself from getting hurt, we hurt someone we love the most?

I hate the fact that we are not THAT close anymore. I feel like I'm the last thing is his mind. Aku nak jadi macam certain orang kan, if for example her husband 'teruja' tengok a nice attractive sexy woman, she knows from the look of his eyes. She just understand everything about him. And they both can talk about what suppose to be a threaten to their relationship, and even laugh about it.

I want to be that kind of woman.

I want to be someone you feel easy to talk with. I want someone I have no shame to talk about almost anything. I want someone i can talk about everything without the impression that he wouldn't back me up. Say, if ever kan, dalam dunia ni ada seratus orang, 99 orang benci aku, aku harap he will stand out of the crowd and be the only person who likes me...
I wanna see this kind of faith in a man, no matter how bad I did I know he's always on my side. I may be a criminal ke gangster ke, tapi aku nak tengok dia kenal aku thoroughly and separate the other issues.

The impact of break-ups was never been easy for me. At times aku rasa cam nak buat perjanjian itam putih je, tapi ridiculous je. As if ur relationship relies on that piece of paper. These days macam-macam yang aku pk. Kadang2 I feel like I've reached my limit but, thinking of how comfy I was in his embrace... Cried and a fullstop. Sometimes when I start to get closer with someone else I remembered how I love to see him making cute faces, and how he made me laugh big time. Cried again and again and again.

I do believe he feels the same way.


	the who February 1, 2005 01:15 AM PST there is a price we got to pay, there is a game we gotta play... the man always got his faith & he in needs a return of toleration. the man does feel weaker & weaker for each ignorance you've done. the man can't stand your illusion... the man has tried his deepest will yet it seems to be just a drop of liquid in a monstrous ocean as you've always saw him that way... why can't you both stands in the same timeline?


	girlmonday February 1, 2005 07:51 AM PST i've been thru frustration of breaking up while we both in a long distance relationship...yup i did feel like the world has end for me. but thankfully i have great friends who lend a shoulder to cry on. breaking up is not the end of your happiness girl. take it as a challenge for u to improve ur life. btw, i got back with him a year after the break up cos yup i do believe too he feels the same way as i am. slowly you will figure it out hunn. take care


	lutfi February 1, 2005 05:22 PM PST I have no shame to talk about almost anything. he he he he. anything. almost. ade gak secret secret gak.


	Name February 20, 2005 06:32 PM PST me too sha.. me too.. :( wish i cld be sum1 more understanding.. and really wish he shows me dat i'm on his mind.. kalau tak 24/7 at least ade ingat jugak kite dlm satu saat pon sehari.. hmm.. i think i wuv my bobo...


	Fara February 20, 2005 06:34 PM PST neway.. miss you laa sya.. maybe one day we can meet up wt our dream guy tagging along.. hehe.. u, me, kakakdegil.. hehehe..